Friday, May 20, 2005

A Silent Weekend

So good ole Spurs calls me tonight and we're discussing blog stuff. Then he asks what my plans are for the weekend. Plans for the weekend? I'm supposed to have plans. Well, I am 23, I guess that would be the normal thing. His response? "You're a single, eligible, female...you need to be out!" Well, I've struggled with this for a while. It's a Catch 22! You have to know people to go out with and you have to go out to meet people. Now I know you might say, there's nothing wrong with going out by yourself. And you are right, and I have done that. Here's my problem with that. I've gone out alone. I've gone to dinner alone, to the movies alone, bowling alone, bars alone, clubs alone, etc. Here is what happens on these alone outings:
  1. I am an introvert. I have issues with approaching others.
  2. I don't think I "look" approachable. I'm not sure "intimidating" is the right word, but I don't think I look all that friendly.
  3. After a while, being alone just starts to feel uncomfortable.
  4. When I am approached, it's either by people that I would not want to be approached by (you all have read the posts!), married guys or guys just looking for the hook up that night.

And these outings haven't been just to find a member of the opposite sex. Just to meet people in general. It just doesn't work!

I've looked around into local adult intramural sports, and unfortunately, they are all a little more professional than I am capable of.

I work with mostly men in my office, all married Engineers. There are two girls, one I wouldn't hang out with if my life depended on it, and the other is married with a kid and isn't capable of up and going out as a single gal.

What else is there to do??

Spending weekends alone do tend to suck after a while...I won't lie. To go a whole weekend without one word leaving your mouth until Monday morning at work....it happens.

But, I did this to myself. I moved from Arizona out to the east coast to better myself and get away from a life I didn't want. And even though I did leave my fun friends there, it was for the better. But you can only better yourself so much by yourself.

So, this is the reason why I'm not out on a Friday night. I think it'll help when I go back to school, hopefully this fall. To be in a classroom with others. Meanwhile, my closest friend is 3 hours away, my mom, stepdad and sister will be 2 hours away in July, and I stay entertained with my Blog Family and Friends! Oh, and don't forget Kiki! She's as loyal as they get! :-)